My Desire, dream & wish...

My dream, wish, desire or whatever name you give.... I just wish to turn true is that, I could lie in your arms, with your tight hug.... listening to you, smiling with you, enjoying your heart beat with mine, your warm breath..., kissing you with all my love & affection and say the last words I LOVE YOU and leave my last moment in your hands...!!


Feels like, that will be my most happy, happier, happiest moment of my life....


Will this turn true?


Wish, it should....


Love you with all my Heart...

Expecting a Truth from You.....!!!!!

Still..... I can't convince myself for the reason you've raised, for our Parting away..!!

You said, I'll be happy for this decision not now but atleast in coming days of this bare heart.....

But do you really think, That makes me Happy?

Never Ever...........

But I want to know a Truth that, '' ''Really you left me, for my happiness.. OR,  this decision of leaving me Makes YOU happy...!!??""

I can't get this out in my mind....!!

If you really want to bring cheers in my life, you no need of leaving me saying 'am not correct for you''..... You can atleast try to turn your sweet false promises to True...

Can't you atleast keep off your intelligent foolish thoughts, your matured silly decisions, for a mean while to make me happy..

Can't you atleast give a word of heel, though you can't turn it true...!!

Was the past things an act or present is the Fact....!!!!!!

Expecting a Truth from you..........................................

Drowned with Lot of Questions..!!Do you have Answer?

I can't see my today, dont wanna think about tomorrow... feeling like, everything shedded away with past.. my smile, my happiness, my love, my heart...................!!




I really stood at the position, fighting with my own fate & Destiny.. Playing with darkness.. waiting with tears of blood.... Crying with pain... Shouting in myself..!!


But now...


I no more want to be in that World of gone front past....


And I now, want to enjoy my present.., My World which consists of ''Greatest Happiness'' of Your Presence.......


But, why my soul is pulling down me...?


Is it with a tense of Future...? Reminding the pain of Past? Or what the Heck stopping me?


Might be tensed of this Destiny as I am the game to Play for it..!! It smiles when I cry.. It Cries when I smile..


It always want to be happy & Smiling...


So,it always in hungry of taking me to Last cores of Happiness & pushes me from there..


You say, Forget past.. Dont think about future.. Just be in Present....


But Sweet Heart.., I  want you in my present, my future & forever... If I be happy for this time committing for every circumstances now..& something happens & we part away..


How can I stop my heart from not wanting you then..


can I again gulp the pain of losing you? Please, tell me what to do?


Expecting you in my life is my Mistake or Thinking about future is my Mistake..

What should I do now?? Drowned in the questions for which my Heart can't give Answers...


Do you have Answer?

I love you infinity of beyond!!!

You make me Happy..... you bring Smile to my lips.... at the same time tears in my Eyes..

Makes me experience the Sweet pain of Missing you..... your Silly fights, serious kiddings..

The secured feel with your warm hug... Sweetness of your Kiss, Your caring ways which some times I feel restriction, later on realising your true essence of love....!!

Every & every moment of my life spent with you is like thousands of Heaven at my feet...

You're the holder of Kingdom of my  Heart....

But..you're the person who are the reason for my 'Tears', of love & Happiness..

I can say.... you're my pain, you're my pain reliever... you're my tear, you're my Smile... You entered into my world & now you're My World.....

What should I say now... I love you..?? I've told you infinity of times... still feeling like couldn't express you better..

''I hate you'' for making me like this... as such an edicted specimen for you..!!

''I miss you'' every time I tap my eyes....

""I love you Infinity Beyond".. Beyond my life, Beyond the thing so called a four letter magical word 'LOVE'.

Was it a Dream?? Dilemma..!!!

Why can't it be a Dream.!!!

It was so beautiful,Cheerful.. but, why Startled suddenly...!!??

Was that my mistake that I opened my Eyes without making the dream to continue.

Was that my mistake to be in such 'LOVE'ly Dream of Reality or not to Realise yet that the things are not a Dream - which never be long lasting..

Or is this My mistake to blame myself..!!

Should I blame myself for opening the eyes!!

Or Should I praise you for making my eyes open & showing the reality & propose that I was living in Dreams....!!

Might be, Answerless questions which made me a Question Mark to myself..!!


But, is that the Happiness Concluded by that...!!???

Just resulted in Darkness where there's no place in my Beautiful Dreamy world...

'Destiny of Darkness'... The Worst Vibe of my life, which never taken place in my course of life yet..!!

Why you waken me up..!! Why thrown me into clutches & thinking I would be happy in them..!!

Still.... in a Dilemma that 'Was it a Dream?'

Hope of Reciprocation..

The Three Words  ''I Miss you'' from you, which makes my feel vibrant.. Which moulds myself patience & enjoy the sweet pain of the moment without you..

-Brings out the hell of pain with Heaven of love...

I say, Missing you like 'Heaven', as missing you is also a sweetest moment you give to me with all the other cheers of  world with your warm loving way..


The reason of enjoying such a painful moment of 'without you' is just with a confidence that, wherever you're... you gonna come to me for sure & scream 'Missed you every second My Princess" as such whole world can able listen......



But now.......................................

This is no longer a sweet pain.. itz a cry of bare heart.... Itz a fact that, you never gonna come to me..!!



Though am Missing you like Heaven or  Hell... you never say in turn Miss you too..


Never even say 'Missing you Princess.. wanna come to you"


Itz hard to atleast  imagine again the happiness of your Warm hug after the long waiting hours induced with sweet & sour pain of Missing each other..


But still in 'Hope of Reciprocation' from you..

"Once you were mine... All mine"

Is that Really true that Everything was Over..!!!


Am I in my dream that am holding your Hand and walking all over our lovely lanes...!!


Am I still resided in those dreams turned true sequences by closing my eyes...!!!

Can't I open my eyes & see my world without you..!!


Can't I walk in the lanes without your tender touch on my hand..!!


Can't I hum the lines of the song again without your presence in my imaginations..


Can't I atleast take the breathe where your fragnance surrounded all around which is no more with me....!!!! 


Itz Good now.., Not for the things Happened...!! But,to realise that everything was Happened..!!!


Still murmuring myself that "Once you were mine... All mine" & trying to open my eyes and will dare to see my bare World  Without 'YOU'.

Wish....

My wish for every falling star never changes..


The only wish comes from my heart is that, the moments we spent together should stay tuned forever..


Or if that day comes... when we go apart... Make that the last day of my life...!!!


So, if I remind or see back the days of my life, I can see all days are filled By 'YOU'.. which makes my soul happy.. :)


Love you da..

Just coz of you

My Smile, My cheers & every happiness came out of all my pains are just because of you..


You turned my world of worst nightmares to a Beautiful Dream..


You stood with me , given me assistance even in my imaginations of staying alone.


My loneliness flew away with tears of jealous on your love...


My Tears shedded away by the affection induced Kiss you've given on my Eyes..


With no other thought, I  trust you with all my heart & should accept that you're the source of my Smile (which is never fake or painted)


Now, what the word I've to give for you..!!??


Should I say, I never leave you... I never & can't do that even in my dreams atmost..!!


Should I say, I'll be with you forever... But, I need you more than you need me..!!


What should I say?


Well.., I can only say one thing that, I never wanna lose you until or unless you wanna go away from me..!!


With lotz of love...!!

Vibes of Love

I can't stop Memorising our bea'U'tiful moments still running freshly infront of mine..
Can't forget..,
the Touch Of Your Love, when your heart beating with mine in your Arms..
The way, your gentle ray of sight soothens me..
Your warm breath while we conspire in Good Deeds..,
The moments.., we move hand in hand taking all this world into Imagination & turning our Imagining World into True..
Your first Kiss on my Forehead made me feel that, this is the Love and You're the one for me..
Your tender touch on my chin makes me comfortable from Worries. Your smooth impression on my hand shed of my warm tear drops with your image in my eyes makes me feel like you surrounded all my World and turned as the Colourful One..
Am really Thankful to you for making me to enjoy the Real mean of Love & Care by realising my every Dreams to True.
How come the circumstances may be, my trust and Love upon you never Fade even in Flukes.., as you made me to believe what the Love is.. and you Given me a Birth of a New 'ME' in myself which I thought I never find..
Thankyou for abstracting the Real ME & for waking up my inner face of soul My Love.
Now, What should I say..,
Is love the secong name of you..!!! Or,
You're the First Name of Love...!!!
May be.. Yeah.., These are the True ""Vibes of Love..""

Mistake.....

Itz not that I dont only Like you-------- I love you ,

Itz not that I Only remember you-------In my mind, itz only You,

Itz not that I afraid of Lose you -------- Itz that, I may lose myself...

After all...,

"" Losing you is the second worst thing in my Life..

Loving you is the First.......""

I hate Everything Except YOU..

You Gone away.... No hope of return....But still.., my eyes are searching for you, my heart searching for your love...Whenever you're away from me., I used to have a feel that you're by my side . Your thoughts have such positive influence upon me..!!!But now.., though I search you with all my broken pieces of heart... I couldn't find you anywhere...Why that happened?? Why that day taken place in our lives??Why I met you? Why I can't lose you?Do you have a answer??Why all the promises made were broken? You broken them or me or this Destiny.............!!!!!!I hate myself for losing u... I hate destiny for letting you go...

I hate everything except you.....

Still waiting for you... Comeback & heal me...... Truely, I need you & STILL Love you with all my Heart...

Trying To Smile...

Trying to smile..... But why tears rolling down.....!!!!Am pampering myself that am strong..., but really not.Losing you is like losing Myself..!!Do you feel the same as I feel...??Can you atleast feel my pain..?You were in my every seconds & moments.But.., itz really tough to realise the fact that,you're no more in my small tender world...But still trying to smile atleast for others sake..For, No use...!! except expell me out..!!! Coz, My Tears mostly replacing my every Smile..But.., only for the word I've given you.. Am trying to Smile..!!Will Miss you every Moment...!! :(

Waiting......

""Waiting to enter into the World which contains only & only Love,

No pains , No worries.... Only Effection & Happiness prevails....

Booms of care & Cheers. Reside of peace & pleasant lanes to Pure Heart.

But, Key of that LOVEly Heart of World is With you....!!!!

Wishing.., I would be the ever seated Princess to rule that World.....

Heart is a Worst Decision-Maker..

Yes.., It's pretty true & fact that should accept any how.. Thousands of issues and series stops the power of making decisions though they're wise. It is a partiality crap and always have concerns even on our bloody loved ones... The memories(should say, thorns of pains) stored..., Feeling like erasing them, wave them & shedding away from deep cores of Heart.. But, it never accepts and secure them in lobes and make the Heart to ache with pain of past..

It will scream with never healed pain saying ""still there's a chance"... Mind will be yelling with the fed up of that past and says "Come out". Itz better to listen to my mind..!!

Just wanna kill the voices of Heart and listen to What Mind says, as I always Believe....

""Heart is the Worst Decision-Maker...!!!!!""

I want all the Things Back..

I want all the Things Back :

Yes, Faded memories recollected, just give a warm painful Tear Drop which just results in ruining down the leading lives. Wanna erase every and every past proceeded memories and want to fill my life with Success sparks replacing shedded reels of realities.

For that.., all that need is Strength & boldness which am feeling like lost these days..

""I want all the things back"

So, no other thought, I can cope up.. Wish, I may have a boom of memory loss for that short span incident which moved my life out of track...!!!!!!

Wake up my inner soul... Induce the power of banning sensitivity & Tender Depressions...

Yes, I'll be back...

Will Back with a new face.., Drowning the ruined realities..!!

Vexed up with the Emotion so called "Love"

Vexed up with the Emotion so called "Love"...

Yes... It moved me badly.. Turned me helpless.. Made me hopeless...!!

Am still in a battle of turning my fake smiles into reality.. But couldn't able to.. Second by second, it is tough to realise the fact that You're no more with me.. Wherez your love, your promises, your words... Everything vanished & turned the truth to a bad night mare....!!!!
These tears are the pay of my deeds..!! Why I trusted you as such you are my longlasting bond of love ..Why I bounded such effection..when, U can't even feel my pain.. You are happy with ur new life which never consists me..!! Happy with ur decision..by not even missing me..!! I really blame myself for still waiting for you with a never come true, dream & hope..!!!

Trying to lead the life with lotz of cheers which are waiting for me.. Those faded memories are the obstacles stopping me to reach the sparks of happiness.. struggling to come out of all those barriers..

Yes... I'll...!!! Coz, am not such negatively influenced with the destiny though it betrayed me..!!

Just in illusion..!!

Itz just an Illusion that am Bold & Strong.. But really not... Though the Heart is yelling with Terrible ache of pain, I just tried to kill the inner voice & patted myself that am bold enough to face the consequences.. When YOU resembles in every song I listen, Every pic I see, Everywhere I feel.., How can I still limit my Bleeding heart not to yell..

Slowly, am really hating myself for trusting that you'll be my everlasting companinon of life.. Feeling like thrashing myself for still waiting for you and showing unconditional love resisted in deeper lobes of my Tender Heart.

Still in an Illusion that "Am Strong".......................